Boo...Today is a new week again...lalala...
hmmm...wasnt beri happy with today lah...maybe because lots of teacher never come especially Mr Hector Tan...he haven been coming to school for a week...My Biology dunno can survice anot..hai yaya...
Well...school today was like normal lorh...onli have been sleeping in Biology lesson as cher never come but never sleep during Physics lesson as Ms Lai got give us work to do...haa...onli finish half of the paper...the rest of my time was crapping with Elisha and Nana the banana...haha...was having fun lah...blah blah blah...
After school was the worse...meet Mdm Fazelah my art teacher...she wanted us to pas up to her the letter of how we think about tha Tang Tang Woman...she knows we're living a terrible life...at LAST...!!! haha...after meeting i faster go canteen to meet ah dor...sorry dor...make u wait kinda long...
Was having loads of fun with ah dor as we're carpping each other...haha...den we come up with a "project"...doing art...!!! haha...our theme is "Lost in my never ending world..."...Nice...? haha...it's the combine of dor's and my theme...haha...gonna think of something to draw...woohoo...haha...so we were discussing our things when Ambrose jus sudden called mi...carps seh...was calling just to li siao sia...was kinda pissed off...den reach home...go fairprice with my mummy cuz she need help in carrying mah...haha
Den we chat chat...she told mi that i've change to be better...i was glad...but the next thingy she said is so sad...she said that even if she know i've change...but that doesnt mean that others would want to accept me...like some of my other family members that i do not wish to mention...was so sad u know...ARGH....!!!!!!
Hai...dunno lah...was having mixed feelings now...wad the hell...ahhhhh!!!!!!
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
7:36 PM
Boo...well time for blogging again..haha...
Well...days have been even hard to live thru after that Tang Danasty woman who claim herself as a Art "specialist" came to pick on my drawings...kinda suffer from emotional breakdown...she is so damn MEAN...have been crying when i think of that day when she crap me...SOBBY
Dun talk bout it...not onli ART...other subject oso make me wanna breakdown...Felt so stress seh...and now still thinking whether i should take part in Opus 3 anot...haix...stresss ah......ARGH...!!!!!
Haiz...still got about 221 days till O levels...scared seh...*hair stands*...worried i cannot make it to that day...sooo WORRIED...hai...hai...hai...
Well...realli dunno what's wrong with everybody nowadays...is like...make me hard to understand them...i realli dunno lorh...hai...
Am realli lost of words nowadays...like lost in dunno where seh...like so anti to everyone around me...am i going mad...?
Anyway...saw a quote in a music book and i wish to share...
"Rhythm and Harmony find their way into the howard places of the soul"
-Plato
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
7:47 PM
Boo...School so fast start le...so freaky sian diao...
haha...Last sat was kinda the "proudest" moment of our REGENT precussion D-drummer...hehe...as we won 2nd place for our ensemble competition...!!! yeah...!!!
Well...Holiday was kinda busy with my art work and also during Band camp,i was busy with my ensemble practice whish therefore make me kinda stop thinking of him lo...haha...but competition has over and nothing much that makes me busy which now makes me think of him again...but well...it's ok lah...cause i'm seeing him so happy with his life...so i'm happy too...haha
Well...wasnt really happy with my life as i need to work alot harder for my studies...there's alot of room for improvement to make yea...haa...
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
7:30 PM
WoO...I'm back from camp..!!! but tmr is my ensemble competition...so have ta work hard and rest rest...! update again..hahahaha...
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
11:31 PM
Hmm...it's been like weeks i've not blog...haha...was just busy doing somestuff lorh...
hmm...life was more better to me now after i've start to change myself...I mean,everyone should know they'll change eventually...It's just a matter of whether u change earlier or later...also...to what extent you have change yourself into...but it's other people's choice whether they want to accept you as who you are anot...you just cant force them to make them like you right...
well...early morning 8.30am go for Physics extra lesson...wa...the IT resource room was like a freezer like that so damn the cold...but of course...i manage to endure the coldness and an hour of lesson just finish without problems...den go for art lesson...saw alot of my ex-sec 2s classmates...but didnt really talk cause we all was busy doing our own artwork...so half the day just went slowly away...leave at about 12.35pm...went lot 1 have lunch with Jeanie...have talks with her and i just find that she's kinda fun to hangout with...but i didnt really know why some friends of mine said she's not good...but i just find she's alot better than other people that i know...but this is my choice and their choice of looking at a person...haha...so I've no complains bout anything when people criticizes others...cause i've learn that people have their own choices...you just cant make sure they think the same way as you...correct...? haha...
tomorrow need to go art lesson also...hai...but i really need to do my work or else i cant start painting my artwork...haha...Min Fang...need to jia you and do work...haha...i know i lazy lah...but i'll try lorh...
saw a quote from internet and i decided to share with you people...haha...
"Life is all about choices.When you cut away all the junk,every situation is a choice..."
Nice one wasnt it...? haha...anyway hope you all enjoy ya HOLIDAY..!!!
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
11:12 PM
My God...Today wasnt a good day for me in the morning...hai...
But u kuw...Things will always be better...So I'm feeling all ok le lor...Got wad Elisha told mi...Must learn to forgive and move on or u'll never survive...And I just find it so damn true...I wanna SURVIVE...!!!
haha...Oh yup...Today early morning when I'm sitting near the pavement as i'm late (all thanks to the Chua Chu Kang Sec having their sports day)...the principle actually said a quote...she said : "it doesnt matter how people look at you,is how you look at yourself matters"
Well...that's really true...so I'm not gonna be so sensitive like how i am now...i'll change myself...or else i cant SURVIVE...!!!! Like what Elisha told me...I cant always be the one who takes people's problems because, i also have my own problems so sometimes i must learn to say : "sorry,I really cant help you this time"...But you kuw...people will say you're selfish but sometimes you just really have to...and never blame yourself since no one is blaming you...just blame no one and move on...believe in yourself in everything...have faith in yourself and never give up or look down on yourself just because you cant do a small little thing...
And the most important she said is if you have a friend that always force you to listen or to help him/her in her problems and will neglect you just because you rejected to help...Then this friend is NOT worth in your life...and never bother to care about them as they're just making your life difficult...so move on and tell yourself...you're never alone as GOD (any of your religion)...is ALWAYS by your side and will always accept you as what you are and who you are...
So from today onwards...I'm gonna change to move on because:
"Without GOD...I'll never be what am I today..."
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
6:37 PM
Woot...Today i just cut my hair...!!! at last...hair was like so damn long...haha...
hmmm...today got English mock exam...dunno can pas anot...hai hai hai...worse is that i failed my Biology by 3 marks leh...beri de freaky de sia...hai hai hai...well...have to study for my biology seh...sian de leh...bleach~
Well...i think i realli is a crazy one...as i dunno why i so damn stupid to keep waiting for a guy that dun like me...stupid sia...freak....
Well...shall stop here as i will be busy studying these days...sooo wont be updating much...haha...
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
9:48 PM
hai..These few days that I've gone thru is like so freak...have been taking back test results and it's like wad the freak.........damn lousy marks i get for chem...the..........vomit blood....argh....
today is a worse day...art lesson is so hard to go thru...like time goes so so so SLOW...nearly took my life away...haha...mdm fazelah "scolded" me...so sad...I cried...but who cares...? NO ONE...obviously...(-_-)'''
Extra lesson of physics was bored but i manage to survive...haha...it's true...almost half the class was dying...haha...I'm able to take it ok...? haa...
Dor at my hse now...haha...was listening to her beautiful piano playing juz now...I so lucky rite..? haha...can hear her playing...woohoo...!!! lucky me...wahaha...
Thinking of jogging this sun...cuz so tense up lately...want die liao...ahhh...
well...thought of giving up waiting for him...but........juz dunno why I dun wan to let go...hai...W-H-Y...?!?! I'm so freak up with myself...I realli do hope to let him kuw i like him...to me...If i could be with him happily for ONE day...juz with him willingly being happy with me...I realli will let go if i have to...I promise...cuz this is life...
But no matter what...as long as he's happy...I'll be happy...cuz......u're the one who is impt in my life for now...haha...
minfang xD
all lost and alone.
7:37 PM
